Lessons from Lent

So I've had 40 days of minimal internet contact. I didn't un-install my browsers like I had planned, although I should have because I cheated occasionally.

The first week was definitely the hardest. I'd check my e-mail and keep hitting the send/receive button thinking..there has to be more! My computer is upstairs and before Lent I'd come up to check e-mail and browse from 7-10 times during the day. I found the time between e-mail checks began to slow down (only so many times I can hit send/receive til it sinks in there is no new e-mail!). I even *gasp* went a full day here and there without checking at all!

I mentioned that I cheated occasionally. Not once did I log into Facebook, my blog reader, or Twitter but I did give myself permission to do check things here and there that I felt necessary. My son moved from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts and the new troop I needed to do some on-line training, get permissions slips, etc. The worse times for me was when Russ & I would be researching something. At first I'd just look over his shoulder..that got annoying real quick. Then I just "jump on Google to check" for myself and I'd find myself wandering around on tangents again. But..as soon as I realized what I was doing..I would stop.

Probably one of the hardest things was getting friend requests from Facebook and Twitter follows. Some of the people I had e-mails for and was able to explain..the others I hope will not think I snubbed them.

Anyway..so what did I get out of this? quiet, lot's of quiet

No, I don't need to turn my speakers down. I mean mental quiet. I love information..from people, books, blogs..anywhere. I still read books (lots in fact..I got a lot of reading done the past month and a half) but I'd have quiet interludes during the day to just think (while catching up on much needed housework!). I could get an e-mail and not immediately jump to Google to find 20 solutions to the problem..I could just think for a while, figure it the solution myself. Which is probably the same solution I would have come up with after 40 minutes of web-surfing anyway.

How did this fit in with my word of the year - Renew? It definitely helped:

Intellectual - As I said before, I did a LOT of reading. Some educational, some just fun (I read the 4 books from the Twilight series last week). I also got my acceptance e-mail (and then letter) from the University of Texas in Arlington. I'm heading back to school to work on a Masters of City and Regional Planning. More on this later.


Artistic - I did get some painting done. I finished a pet portrait commission and a flower painting. I'm finally starting to relax when I think about painting instead of the "who would want to buy this" panic I'd go into. Again..blog fodder for another day.

Physical - This is going well but slow. After doing a 13 mile hike with a group of scouts, I decided I'd really start pushing my workouts to the limit. For almost a month I did weights a minimum of 2 times a week and did some sort of cardio (running, elliptical, biking, etc) for 30 minutes to an hour 5-6 days a week. I really felt the difference in my body but my weight loss ground to a halt. Mentally, I need to see some progress so I've back off the intensity. I'm sill training to run a 5k though.

Spiritual - My Bible in a year goal is still going too slowly for my own satisfaction. I found myself writing arguments against the workbook author in the workbook I was using so I decided to switch tracks. I bought The One Year Chronological Bible and the guidebook. I haven't used the guidebook but it does help to have daily goals (that I can see I'm missing ;)) I'm almost to the end of February and I'm sure I'd be much further along if I wasn't so engrossed in the Twilight books last week. The mental quiet I talked about above also gave me a lot of time to think, ponder, pray and a philosophize which is one of the main reasons for breaking bad habits during Lent.

Emotional - Getting stronger every day. I've made the choice inside myself that I will change and hence my life is changing to fit.

So..enlightened, lightened, and lit up! Ok..so that's corny but I can't think of a funny or sage way to end this blog but from my several "more on this later" comments..I'd better sign off and get to work!

Fitzi, 7" x 5" acrylic on canvas, sold

My New Year's Resolution...sort of

I'm a pretty avid resolution setter, I even drag my family into my..um..game? But this year, I decided to try something new. I'm a follower of Christine Kane's blog and she has come up with a much more inspiring and meaningful way to approach a new year...Word of the Year. She calls it a Resolution Revolution and I agree. Read more about it in her post here.

So my word for the year...Renew

edited from dictionary.com:

re.new
to restore or replenish ~ to revive; reestablish ~ to recover (youth, strength, etc.). ~ to be restored to a former state; become new or as if new again.

2008 wasn't my favorite year. The tail end of 2007 sort of set the tone and I think I've been going downhill from there. I've done a lot of soul-searching and introspective thinking the past 3 months and I've started taking the steps to change the path I'm currently on.

I don't need a new me...just a replenished or recovered me. I plan on focusing on the following areas of my life: Intellectual, Physical, Spiritual, and Emotional.

Intellectual - This is by far the biggest area of Renewal this coming year. I've really struggled the past 3 years with being an artist, an art instructor, and a homemaker. My quality of life has deteriorated over the past 3 years with the effects reaching into every other area of my life.

I'm not entirely certain of the solution yet. I've done a great deal of research over the past several months and there is no easy answer in sight. I'm close, but until I'm sure about the changes, especially involving the teaching aspect, I'm going to hold off divulging much information.

Artistically, I do plan on spending a great deal more time on exploring some new ideas as well as working on areas in which I want to be a stronger artist. More details on some steps I'm taking will come very soon!

Physical - get out of my overweight rut, push myself to a new level with exercise..not sure how to set this as a goal...knees may not put up with running training for a 5k. I'd like to tie it in with my new found love of camping....maybe a rack up some hiking miles? I'm open to ideas here.

Spiritual - I've gotten very slack in this department. Not only has my church attendance been very poor but my own development, reading, and exploration has come to a standstill. I plan on starting a year long study in reading the bible (I have a workbook to go by) and work on waking up on Sunday mornings!

Emotional - This one is too raw to go into details. I have some issues I'm trying to resolve in my family life. I'm also hoping this is one of those areas that will benefit from "trickle down" renewal from the other 3!

Renew...not so much as a reinvention of myself as a climbing out of the mess..discovering what was always there but forgotten.

So what's YOUR word in 2009?

About the painting: Songbird, acrylic & paper, 12" x 12" is a portrait of my youngest daughter that I completed while taking Paulette Insall's All about Faces web class. This wasn't quite my style of painting but she is an excellent instructor and by stepping out of my box..I was able to make a breakthrough in my own artistic cowardice. Guess what? Yep...that'll be another blog!